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Oh, stop sulking,
It doesn't become you.

But you kraaa, wat b ur wahala?
I should be the one putting up airs,
Of offence, hurt.

Maybe I shouldn't bother.
It will be back to the drawing board.
What to bet an eraser on it?

Continuation of my school days coming up on Wednesday. Enjoy the week.

Fortress

A world untouched,
Still calm,
Gentle surface,
Silent echoes,
Sparse impressions,
Iridescent facade.
Words of hail,
Innate threats
To keep at bay
Everyone.

All existence
Contained
A minute box.
Was not always like that.
Brick here,
Mortar there,
Crack,
Quick fix.
Slow, sure,
The walls came up,

Layers made from
Tears shed,
Hurts,
Disappointments,
Worry,
Battles.
Bolts and boulders.

The Other Woman II

Don't think I didn't notice.
You watched.
Stared at her.
Your grip on my arm
Momentarily loosened.

I saw the quick flare in your eyes,
Followed by a shadow of disappointment.
Felt you withdraw a bit more,
Never hearing a word I said.

Could have forgiven you,
Might forget,
Ignored the signs even.

You stole a glance.
When she had gone,
You looked back.

Bare Yourself

Most people talk about it but dare not do it.
The baring of the self; plain old honesty; truth.
Why do you feel it is due you, but you don't owe it to me?
Why should I bare myself to you?
Tell you the truth about me, my feelings, my failings,
And not demand same of you?
The vulnerability you feel, I feel too,
The defenselessness of the moment,
I am caught in it too.
The fear of being forsaken when you bare yourself?,
I have that fear.
Let's be afraid together,
Be defenseless together,
Be vulnerable with each other.
It is a risk we must take,
In living, caring, loving relations.

* TWO DAYS MORE!!!
I support 1 GOAL with zero goal for the opposing team. LOL...

When Our Words Come Back

Before:

It was all bottled up, inside,

Trying to find a way to tell you,

Yet afraid to. 

The Calm:

Like the calm before the storm

Everything you did, no matter how annoying,

Never aroused anger.

The Storm:

It started like any other day;

Breakfast, a morning kiss,

An issue; can't remember what, in the car.

A flood,

Of words, accusations, allegations,

Overflowing the boundaries.

Overtaking the shoreline,

Destruction.

The damage is done.

Can't take back what is uttered.

Aftermath:

Pain, 

In your eyes.

Every time.

I am sorry doesn't change what has been said.

Pain,

In my heart.

My mind recalls the words I hurled at you,

Those hate-filled, senseless words,

They haunt me,

Every time,

Especially when I see your eyes,

Pain, hurt, confusion,

They reside there.

Realisation:

In hurting you, I hurt myself.

When you are in pain, I feel it too.

I don't want to be the cause of your pain.

* THREE DAYS MORE!!!
I support 1 GOAL with zero goal for the opposing team. LOL...