Many Times What!

How many times can you love without losing yourself?

Get brokenhearted, still persist?

Fragments of your mind,

Fragments of your heart,

Floating about in chart-less-maze askew,

Called to order since life goes on

Delve me the future, Muse,

Hide not your tears, Old Faithful,

Did I die or yet live?

Harboring such pain as this?

Fortress

A world untouched,
Still calm,
Gentle surface,
Silent echoes,
Sparse impressions,
Iridescent facade.
Words of hail,
Innate threats
To keep at bay
Everyone.

All existence
Contained
A minute box.
Was not always like that.
Brick here,
Mortar there,
Crack,
Quick fix.
Slow, sure,
The walls came up,

Layers made from
Tears shed,
Hurts,
Disappointments,
Worry,
Battles.
Bolts and boulders.

The Other Woman II

Don't think I didn't notice.
You watched.
Stared at her.
Your grip on my arm
Momentarily loosened.

I saw the quick flare in your eyes,
Followed by a shadow of disappointment.
Felt you withdraw a bit more,
Never hearing a word I said.

Could have forgiven you,
Might forget,
Ignored the signs even.

You stole a glance.
When she had gone,
You looked back.

Pebble

What can I say
Without making it sound like pity?

Your eyes are filled with anguish,
Puffy from tears shed all night.

If only I could
Cuddle you in my arms,
Soothe your pain.

Alas, this is your wilderness.
Your experience.
You can brave this.

Be a David.
Your smooth pebble?
Let it be me.

When Our Words Come Back

Before:

It was all bottled up, inside,

Trying to find a way to tell you,

Yet afraid to. 

The Calm:

Like the calm before the storm

Everything you did, no matter how annoying,

Never aroused anger.

The Storm:

It started like any other day;

Breakfast, a morning kiss,

An issue; can't remember what, in the car.

A flood,

Of words, accusations, allegations,

Overflowing the boundaries.

Overtaking the shoreline,

Destruction.

The damage is done.

Can't take back what is uttered.

Aftermath:

Pain, 

In your eyes.

Every time.

I am sorry doesn't change what has been said.

Pain,

In my heart.

My mind recalls the words I hurled at you,

Those hate-filled, senseless words,

They haunt me,

Every time,

Especially when I see your eyes,

Pain, hurt, confusion,

They reside there.

Realisation:

In hurting you, I hurt myself.

When you are in pain, I feel it too.

I don't want to be the cause of your pain.

* THREE DAYS MORE!!!
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