Watching Not Waiting

I watch you watching me,

Heave a big sign

Then turn away.

I peek

Catching you, full stare.

Anticipatory tingles run through my palms

Shooting tangential streams of delight

Perusing my body.

Turn away

This is not logical

Weaving dreams in the air.

What We See

The toast of town they were called,
They are a match-made-in-heaven,
The ideal couple,
None was surprised when they announced,
At the end of the festive season they tie the knot.

An idyllic marriage they had,
At least that was what everyone thought.
When she turned up with a black-eye,
Making an excuse; not seeing a door in a blackout,
Much thought was not given to it.
When he attended events, once-too-many times, alone;
Excusing her of having a headache,
Seeing her a day later,
Wrapped in blanket clothes with darkened lenses;
Questions were not asked.

When we close our eyes to what is seen,
Pretending what we think is what is real,
We miss the signs.
An idyllic marriage turned out to be,
Nothing more than a charade-in-tresses,
Masking inadequacies, fears, and tears.
Cat-fights, fist-fights and jaded dreams.

No!

I said no.

You may be every gal's ideal;

For me,

You are not the dream,

Neither the vision.

You may be the nothingness in my sleep,

Or the nightmare in my waking moments.

I won't settle for that.

I say no!